Today is the kind of day that you wake up and feel like crap from the night before when you cried your eyes out because of some stupid drama that just doesn't go away, and I know this is a really long sentence but its the way I'm say it because I'm not stopping to breathe and I just want to get all of this out! *gasp for air*
This is...
My life to Betrayal.
So this weekend was UH- freeking- MAZING! I was District 7 president of FCCLA go to the link http://www.fcclainc.org for more info! And so I get to go as a STATE officer! One of ELEVEN other people who get to go for an office for the STATE FCCLA. It is a pretty big deal no lie!
So exciting as that was, I met some gorgeous people, much like my new buddy Lizzy Lockman, and KKK (its a nick name thing for our officers) and lots of others. I was also in a picture opt with a Chapter that wanted to pass the pictures off as If I were Adam Lambert... (if I had a penny for everytime someone told me that -___-...) and was also told I looked like a Jonas Brother.... ( I would rather look like Adam Lambert! WHY CAN'T I JUST LOOK LIKE ME!!! ;-;) Also I was called HAWT by a person I don't even know, which you can bet that made me feel happy.
BUUUTTTT....
Yes there is a but...
There WAS a downside to this trip to the wonderful Billings funend. Like the Fact that my friend B was going to break up with his girlfriend. Ended up doing it and was crying because he really loved her... Yet she couldn't trust him, blah blah blah, was treating him like crap, blah blah blah... THEN Cost and Smile decided halfway through the conference that they wanted to make each other feel bad... then there were tears... PLUS on top of that! NOT ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM MY TOWN DECIDED TO STAY AND CELEBRATE WITH ME FOR BECOMING AT STATE OFFICER AT THE DANCE! talk about being HURT! Yeah... I know! I felt like crap!!!
So to every upside :D there is a downside D:!
So not only did that happen, but last night I got a call from Dan, a "flirt" buddy I guess you would call him. ANYHOOO... it was something concerning my friend K. I find out that she has been cutting her self and that she just didn't have the guts to tell me herself. That and apparently HE is HER NEW BEST FREEKING FRIEND!
So not only do I feel betrayed that she didn't tell me and told Dan, I feel betrayed that he didn't tell me when he found out... this was freeking serious and THEY made ME feel like CRAP! So I cried last night and now it comes down to today...
I'm ignoring my best friend, I want to stop talking to a new REALLY good friend because of him and my best friend. I want to cry, but I can't. I feel like I can't trust anyone... What is there left to do besides find new friends? I can't even do that because one can't trust ANYONE here in this hick town. Thanks everyone for making my life SOOOO much better! (If you don't understand that is sarcasim... something I seem to be fluent in... maybe colleges will accept that as a foregin language?)
