Lightning Kisses & Thunder storms

"And you only want three wishes:
You want one true lover and a thousand kisses
You want soft and gentle and never vicious
And then you're saving one for a rainy day
If you lover ever takes her love away."

~The Pierces "Three Wishes"

This is...
My life to Welcome

"Lightning Kisses & Thunder Storms"

Fantasy as stated by this dream dictionary says: To dream of a fantasy, may be a way for your mind to highlight what is normal. Alternatively, the dream may be telling you to expand your thinking and use your imagination and creativity. Explore all your options no matter how strange or illogical it may be!
Now Idk about you but it all sounds pretty legit to me!

A show of hands, how many of you have ever fantasized about someone? Maybe it was a specific person or just anybody that could love you???

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That's what I thought, now you might not be admitting it if you are reading this either in front a large group of people you don't know, in front of you very conservative grandparents/family members, in front of that guy you are fantasizing about, or just to yourself! But I know you all do it!! And it's nothing to be ashamed of. Even I do it!

Right now it's doing what I love best weather wise. Lightning and Thundering! Hopefully it will rain... the only reason I wish it would rain was so I could go out there and dance and spin around and... well fantasize.

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Oh Snap!

Now it's getting to the juicy part right?!

CORRECT!

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To fantasize about the kiss that's never going to come, the guy that will never show, the memory that will never burn in my head.

Depressing I know...

But hey that's what I fantasize about everytime it gets like this....



The hot summers day had us in the lake all day so we are close when we get out, cuddling as we walk down mainstreet eating Gilato from the Gilato place (leamoncello for me and something delish for him. ^-^) sharing each others a bit now and again. Doing all these grossly cute things and stuff. Then dark clouds roll above our heads, a nice cool breeze passes over our hands that are together. Thats when the first raindrop comes and hits us perfectly in the middle of our hands. We both look up and I start to turn around as rain starts pouring down and lightning blazes the sky. He smiles as I turn away, our hands breaking loose, he grabs me as the rain continues to come down on us, thunder in the background clapping above our heads and making the earth skake, and his lips brush against mine. Ofcourse I would want a little spark, but ofcourse a huge crack of lightning comes crashing down in the background and we kiss for a bit longer. We finally decide to get under a tree away from all the rain (even though it isn't a smart idea since it is lightning and thundering, still it's just a fantasy and NOTHING bad goes on in my fantasy ^-^). We find a nice low tree to stand under, both of us looking up at the beauty of the conflicts of the partons and what not in the clouds. He pulls me close again, we look into each others eyes and we exchange the cliche: "You are so beautiful." I blush and look away. He grabs my chin and brings it back, "I mean it." He kisses me fully and it's amazing and beautiful, one of those moments you never want to let go but you have to.

Okay...
There! There is my secret!!! My fantasy, well...my like epic wish that would happen but never will because I have to look at the reality of life and see that it will never happen...
But I can dream can't I??!!!
I don't see what's wrong. Fantasy's whether sexual or NOT! Can be an amazing way for you to live life. Just remember that you shouldn't stay in those fantasies but hey, they are nice to visit when you really need a pick me up or just a place to get away to!

Lightning Kisses & Thunder Storms

xoxo
~JW

Syrup fer yer Waffle

Paintchipped Fingernails

"It's so legit that it's redic, but it's chill, because the real question is... what is fresh? Loves it, you more. However, would you like syrup fer yer waffles?! Yet it's just because I'm asian you fire-crotch! Yeah that's right, way to go ginger, you hoe! I'm too cute to be targeted, and getting in trouble makes me feel alive, but my rAt needs to use the bAthroom. Oh well..."

This is
My life to Welcome

"Paint Chipped Fingernails"

I sit here listening to my many different stations on my Pandora Radio account. The many lyrics passing by my ears and lingering in the air as I write this. It seems that the heat has gotten to all of Polson, not surprising. To the point where I actually jumped... kinda... into the lake this afternoon. After all day in the 80 some odd degree weather you think @ 8:00 pm it would be cooler, however it only gets hotter from 82 to 84 degrees... what a wonderful summer!

Anyhoo this last week I was in the lovely, beautifully old historical Capital, Helena!!! WOOO! Ofcourse only for the summit for my group reACT: Against Corporate Tobacco. Idk when the pictures and the video will be up on the site but let me tell you a whole 4 days of FUN for all of us on the rCT from "flasks" to racial comments about slaves, to the EPIC dance to being the hot bar maid and Bambi being the amazing sexy guy in the old portrits we had. We even had cancer survior of Lung Cancer because of all the second hand smoke in the clubs she preformed at Rene Hicks, now one of my favorite comedians!!

Oh the Dorm room tales in Trinity Hall, the nice air conditioned giant dorm rooms that the trainers (and RCT got to stay in) to the delicious syrup-y waffles in the cafeteria, and getting "grunted" towards by a bunch of 12 year olds at Caroll Campus for the either the Soccer Camp or B.Ball Camp. Anyhoo the 4 days entailed amazing fun, and even more amazing memories that NONE of us will EVER forget!!! Oh man... it's sad to see everyone but 4 of us leave the RCT, knowing that next year will hold new "n00bs" and hopefully cool ones!!!

Not only did I have to stay after the summit for the new reACT commerical that will be showing ALL over MT (if it gets accepted by the state in which I know it will!), I got to stay after to do a video for "Tobacco Free Schools"!!! WOOOT! I'm just on a roll! First a photoshoot for ENVY SALON (in Polson) then the summit, then one video thing, then a commerical with Photoshoot! Dammmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaa!!! I'm hot hot hot!!! HAHAHA!

Anyhoo with a week full of fun and memories I'm only here to do a quick update on my upcoming schedule! This week I'm back in town only until thursday when then on friday I'm leaving to catch a plane to Chicago for FCCLA National Leadership Conference (NLC) until the 9th. Then I'm back into town and looking for a job at a clothing store somewhere, mostly because I decided I wanted to become a stylist!!! (Double Major in Business and Fashion, and minor in Marketing/Public Relations.)

Oh this has deff been a summer to remember. BTW the couple of days before the reACT summit I did the relay for life, had to do the "Mr. Relay" competion @ 1 am, and a straight guy won with a corset, a mini skirt! Oh my and let me tell you, going to be prepared and worked out before it next year!!!

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BTW ALERT!
Starting a new Youtube channel, Misfitsinheels! I'll update when I have the first video up!!! Be excited!
And also will hopefully be getting the photos from ENVY SALON soon!!!
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Nailpolish & Lipstick stains!!!

xoxo

~JW

Where does the good go?

A very wise woman told me, on the way back from the store from getting ice cream and soda for floats, that there are two sides to every story, and somewhere in between is the truth. It dawned on me, if two people are fighting, they have to come together and share their halves to find that "somewhere in between". I know what I have to do now...



This is...

My Life to Welcome

"Where does the good go?"



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*NEWS UPDATE*

I just found out that one of my bestfriends from my hometown just lost her baby! I can't believe how much you hurt after hearing someone you didn't know just died... My prayers are with all the mothers who have lost children (even if I'm not religious)!

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What do you look for in a best friend?

*Scratch that*

What do you look for in any friend?

I look for :

• Honesty, a number one thing for me in any friend because a friend, to me, is someone you can share all your secrets with and not have to worry about them being leaked out there! Oscar Wilde even said "A true friend stabs you in the front."


• Someone FUN: I can't be friends with someone that wants to just sit around and do NOTHING all the time! I need someone who is really out there and ready to have some fun! I need fun in my life and not boring.


• Support: When I think of a friend, I think of someone who supports you through things that are hard in your life, and you know that they will be there for you, whether its coming out to your family, getting kicked out of your house, loosing a baby whatever! They always support you and are there for you to talk to about things!
• Commonality: I mean c'mon when you want a friend you want someone that likes things that you do. That's what drives two people to become friends is similarties and commonalities! Or else what would be the point of being friends with someone if you can't talk about both of your love for music or hot guys, shopping?

These things plus more bring out what a true friend is to me!

Those are just somethings I look for. There is so much more that I would put on here but this isn't a list of just things. But hey, I wanna hear what you look for in a friend. Comment and stuff!!

Tear drops & Friendships

xoxo

The Summer of 2010 is upon us!

Today is the day where you go to school all fancy because your friends have a "big surprise" for you, and you think it's going to be that really cute kid from that one town that one of your friends know and you end up getting blindfolded instead and taken all over around town. Then your friend that is driving with the other friend in the front seat decided to just go all the way to Ronan without telling the friends that actually made the Idea for the "big surprise" and then they leave you guys in the back of the truck while they go get DQ and then send rude text messages calling you a f*g when one of them has no room to talk and the other just thinks it's great to just jump in, so you and your friends decide not to ride back in the same vehcile as them and then you stay there waiting for your other NICE GOOD AMAZING friend (who's name might be Cj) comes to pick you up an hour out of town to bring you back and then get a text message from the "friend" that likes to jump into fights that says "I'm sorry I know I lost your trust but is there anything I can do." and you all just ignore her because tomorrow is your birthday and it was the last day of school and you are a senior next year and it's all just sprialing out of control for not only you but also your best friend who's dad is being a doucher and then BAM....

This is....
My life to Welcome
"The Summer of 2010 is upon us!"

So I don't know when to begin about today... the part where three other of my friends and I get backstabbed, the part where the crush I like can't make it to the "secret" party my friends had planned (JUST AS LONG AS I'M NOT BLINDFOLDED) or the part where I was blind folded all day and people just had the best time watching me fail as a blind person in Subway??

Well, actually that pretty much sums up about my entire day! Not gonna lie but I have a feeling that this summer... might just be that summer that you have that just changes your life forever. Where old friends become non-existant, new friends become old friends, you have your first summer fling (something that you hope might last more than that), all of your other friends are now graduated and it's only like three of you left for graduation this next year....
Yeah, I have this feeling that it's gonna be one of those summers.
You can't see it now, but I'm jumping up and down with excitment... scarastic remarks are always the best aren't they? ^-^
Anyhoo... that first big giant paragraph just gives you a glimpse of my day and how it was going quite amazing then BAM all these life changing events just seemed to happen.
Okay, okay, you might not see them as life changing events, but when you loose two friends because of something stupid and it's the summer of your soon to be SENIOR year and all this stuff just happens. Yeah it's pretty life changing, also when you live in a small town like me and my friends... yeah things happen and it pretty much changes your life!

Word of advice:
When it comes to your friends making "secret plans" for you on your birthday... just go with it... things will happen... ALSO...
Two can keep a secret if one of them is dead ;)

Beachballs & Birthday cake
xoxo

My life to myself!

So when you didn't things couldn't any worse... they don't. Sometimes before you look on the greener side maybe you should look at your own side and water your's. Life is what you make it!

This is...
My life to Myself.

"Hey, Hey, this song is for us,
So put your hands in the air,
Hey, Hey, if your crazy like us,
Hey Hey, That's freedom you hear,
Comin' right to your ear..."
~"Hey Hey" by Superchick

So I've had a lot of problems the last time I wrote on here. The guy I like, that happens to live miles and miles and miles away (did I mention miles away???), and I were kinda in a rough spot, and so was one of my best friends.
But to make a long story bearable. We all got over it! We got over everything and went on with our lives. I am now an Montana FCCLA State Officer, State Officer of Public Relations :D!!!! I had such a wonderful time and was called hot and got lots of numbers, in which I never actually texted haha!
But since then life has been pretty good. School ofcourse sucks but hey, that's school. And I wouldn't say it was the school it's self as much as the people in it. There are just some people you want to kick in the face but sometimes you just can't, even if it would make you feel ALOT better!!!
My friend Cora has found a new guy to fondle over! :D My friend Tawnya and I are A.O.K with each other <3 she even went with me to get my haircut lastnight! My friend Kathy hasn't changed a bit! HAHA! She is still hormonal as ever! Marisa has some problems but we've always known this! And everything is good....

FOR NOW....

I really shouldn't say too much and I should just mostly talk about how tomorrow is going to come and I probably jinxed myself a bad day tomorrow, but right now I don't care. The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, people are in flip flops and sandals, right now everything in life is good.

So this seems like the end for now. The end of my first season of my life on this blog, well that is until season two starts this summer!!! Oh this summer... I can only imagine what is going to happen... It looks like I'll just have to live life being me and go through the bad times and the worse, only hoping that the good will soon follow.

The End...

FOR NOW!!!

XOXO

Love & Sweaty nights!

My Life to Betrayal

Today is the kind of day that you wake up and feel like crap from the night before when you cried your eyes out because of some stupid drama that just doesn't go away, and I know this is a really long sentence but its the way I'm say it because I'm not stopping to breathe and I just want to get all of this out! *gasp for air*

This is...
My life to Betrayal.

So this weekend was UH- freeking- MAZING! I was District 7 president of FCCLA go to the link http://www.fcclainc.org for more info! And so I get to go as a STATE officer! One of ELEVEN other people who get to go for an office for the STATE FCCLA. It is a pretty big deal no lie!
So exciting as that was, I met some gorgeous people, much like my new buddy Lizzy Lockman, and KKK (its a nick name thing for our officers) and lots of others. I was also in a picture opt with a Chapter that wanted to pass the pictures off as If I were Adam Lambert... (if I had a penny for everytime someone told me that -___-...) and was also told I looked like a Jonas Brother.... ( I would rather look like Adam Lambert! WHY CAN'T I JUST LOOK LIKE ME!!! ;-;) Also I was called HAWT by a person I don't even know, which you can bet that made me feel happy.

BUUUTTTT....

Yes there is a but...

There WAS a downside to this trip to the wonderful Billings funend. Like the Fact that my friend B was going to break up with his girlfriend. Ended up doing it and was crying because he really loved her... Yet she couldn't trust him, blah blah blah, was treating him like crap, blah blah blah... THEN Cost and Smile decided halfway through the conference that they wanted to make each other feel bad... then there were tears... PLUS on top of that! NOT ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM MY TOWN DECIDED TO STAY AND CELEBRATE WITH ME FOR BECOMING AT STATE OFFICER AT THE DANCE! talk about being HURT! Yeah... I know! I felt like crap!!!

So to every upside :D there is a downside D:!

So not only did that happen, but last night I got a call from Dan, a "flirt" buddy I guess you would call him. ANYHOOO... it was something concerning my friend K. I find out that she has been cutting her self and that she just didn't have the guts to tell me herself. That and apparently HE is HER NEW BEST FREEKING FRIEND!
So not only do I feel betrayed that she didn't tell me and told Dan, I feel betrayed that he didn't tell me when he found out... this was freeking serious and THEY made ME feel like CRAP! So I cried last night and now it comes down to today...

I'm ignoring my best friend, I want to stop talking to a new REALLY good friend because of him and my best friend. I want to cry, but I can't. I feel like I can't trust anyone... What is there left to do besides find new friends? I can't even do that because one can't trust ANYONE here in this hick town. Thanks everyone for making my life SOOOO much better! (If you don't understand that is sarcasim... something I seem to be fluent in... maybe colleges will accept that as a foregin language?)