~Charles
Bukowski
A
friend of mine once told me, “Water is like the most pure thing on
earth.” I, of course, at the time objected, trying to explain to
her about all the chemicals and bacteria that can be in water. She
kept protesting, continuing on with how it is a form of honesty.
It
wasn't until much later that I figured out what she meant about water
that night. But that's for a different blog post... or maybe just a
private diary entry.
I
guess the point of that story goes on after what had happened that
night.
We
had been at a Modest Mouse concert. I with my friends and she, with
hers. We met at Denny's and had a great night. It wasn't until about
a year or so later, when we sat on the ugly orange 70's couch; a
couch so defiled from sex, booze and drugs, yet we didn't mind, that
we reminisced about that very night.
She
told me something then: “I don't care how corny this sounds, but my
favorite lyrics are 'Even if things end up a bit too heavy we'll all
float on.' That song has helped me through so much, and that line
just reminds me of everything I've been through and how I got through
it. I lived by that line.”
10
points for guessing the name of that song.
I
look back on it now, and I remember all the times that song would
come on shuffle from someones iPod or phone, and she would make
everyone get really quiet and then we'd all belt out that one line as
loud as we could. Of course always ending up just laughing about how
out of tune we were.
But
it's true.
Sometimes
things get hard, like this past couple of weeks, or f*ck even this
year. Not only have I had my own personal struggles and battles with
how I am living my life, where I am going, how it's all going to
happen, but also with my friends, how we have lost friendships, even
a friend in the process of finding ourselves. Ye that one line will
always be the same, and always be true.
I
might be trapped between the heartache of a romance that I know might
never happen and if I want to be at school, and she might be confused
on whether to drop out and “rub bitches.” But the great thing is,
is that no matter what, I can look back on that moment, of pure
tiredness, while she stroked the particles of water that ran down the
cool plastic cup, staring at it and telling me that water was the
most pure thing on earth; a glass full of pureness and honesty. To
that moment on that god-awful, yet strangely inviting old couch, that
no matter what we were going to face in our future, which ended up to
be a lot, that no matter we would all float on.
Because
it's completely true.
If
you are ever having a bad day. Sit down, get a glass of water, put on
your earphones and drown out to the simple melody of that song about
a bad day that never went wrong.
And
you know why it never went wrong?
That's
right.
Because
we'll all float on okay.
