Today was my 18th Birthday, and like almost every single birthday it was quite lame. I don't know what it is with birthday's and I. It's either really lame or has tons of drama! Like last year for example, it was a failed attempt at a surprise party (however I was mucho thankful for it and I ended up loving it) however, it was the day that was atrocious. I mean it started out the day before my birthday when a two friends suddenly changed and stabbed a bunch of us in the back. Then the next day it was guy that I feel in love with that decided to be a bitch to me.
Lets just say that it didn't end well. To be precise, it ended with me crying my eyes out and ripping up a bunch of pictures of my friends. As well as de-friending and blocking people on facebook, and you know shit's gone down if you de-friended and blocked people! So as you can see, it was just down right terrible and I wished that birthday never ever happened.
However it was 10x worse than my “sweet sixteen,” which was sadly not “sweet” at all. That birthday ended up with me playing the Sims 3, which was a birthday present from myself, all day. Yeah talk about awesome right? Wrong! I seriously wanted to just kill myself that day.
I've always dreaded my birthday ever since my 14th. They never ever go well and it is always really really dissapointing. So I knew that this birthday was going to be just as bad and boring. However on Friday I did have a good day with the girls for an early birthday celebration by going shopping, going out to lunch and being treated to “Brides Maids.”
But this thought has come to me now. Why do I even bother trying to celebrate my birthday when I know that it is just going to end up shitty like usual? Well I think it might be because I hope deep down inside that maybe it will go right and according to plan. Yet I will still despise my birthday's to come until it rightfully happens.
However, fun time that I did actually get to go driving for the first time in my life! I know, I know. A graduated 18 year old who doesn't have his license? Didn't take driver's ed? Yes, I have always been too busy to take it (in other words to lazy to actually sign up), so I just haven't done it! But today my mother finally took me out to teach me how to drive and I was fucking nervous but gradually got better and less nervous! So maybe there is something in store for my future soon!
Now a question for you! Do you have any terrible/embarrassing/happy birthday stories you would like to share? Go ahead and email me @ agaylife@hotmail.com and maybe your story will be up on my blog!
Till then...
xoxo
JW
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