Oct 25, 2011: It Does NOT Get Better

A very important person once told me, “It gets worse before it gets better.” I since then used that as a personal 'motto' for when my life seemed really rough. I would always tell myself, when things got a little too rough for me that it does get better, I just have to wait till this is over. I felt better after I told myself this, knowing that it would get better.

It was soon that I saw the effects of telling myself that. Things seemed to be looking up and I was feeling really really great! I thought I was going to go slowly up hill again and I would feel great like I used to. False.

Let's play a game of true and false, it's really easy, I'll tell you something, you say true or false then I'll give you the right answer.

1. Friends are a good source to go to when you are feeling down. True.

2. You will find a guy that likes you. True.

3. That guy wants to get to know you. False.

4. All that guy wants is in your pants. True.

5. It gets worse before it gets better. False.

If there is one thing I've learned these past two or more weeks: It doesn't get better! People are lying to you when they say that. You will never get back up to that euphoric feeling in life again, it's a once in a lifetime f*cking peak that lasts for a month and then you are back on your ass. You can try as hard as you can but the good things that come in your life are all just fake! They are just heartbreaks in disguise. Don't trust ANYONE!

So my advice for you, keep that plastic mask you call happy close by, cause you are going to need it.