The Reconstruction Era

“Because our fight has been for such a long time we are isolated from the world, even after reconstruction we don't have much attention from people outside.”
~Hanoi Hannah

The Reconstruction era has begun. Life seems to be moving on a normal track for everyone at last. However, I have never felt so divided before in my life. While everyone is continuing on with moving forward in their life, I feel like I was left behind. New roommates, friends, and times are ahead but I'm still stuck in the past, trying to figure out where my next steps are. I'm still lost.

Worst of all, I feel forgotten by the group. I was just a pawn in the group and watched as we all fell under the water in a battle of life and friendship. Now that everyone seems to have moved on to newer and better things I am left in the dust, wondering where is there to go? However, I feel like time away from the group is the best right now.

While they are getting along with their lives and changing their views, I am sitting here deciding what I am going to do with my life. Right now the only option is to leave.

And leave I will do.

My time with the group and everyone is over. My adventure here in Montana has come to a halt and now my life will halt with it until my next move. In which happens to be moving to New York to go to school at The New School for a major in Fashion Studies and minor in Media Arts of some sort. The difficult part of all of it is the fact of coming up with about forty-three thousand dollars to go, along with expenses for getting over there.

It's where my future lies, I can tell. It's just a matter of getting over there that is the difficult part. The worst part too. It's so hard to live in a place where you feel like you never were and never can be truly happy. It's like a dark force that grips your neck, ringing you as it drags you to the depths of the shadows. I know once I'm out of here my life will be a lot happier and a lot better.

Sometimes you have to do what makes you happiest before you put anyone else before you, and for me, sometimes that is the hardest part. I will hate to leave my friends and I will be so sad when I do leave but I know, that over all, I will be happy and be in a much better place.

Until then, the Reconstruction Era will continue until we settle into the Industrialization period, which I have a feeling won't be too far away for everyone.

Until next time...

XX
JW