Finding _________ (Marble House)

“The moment we believe that we have never met
Another kind of love it's easy to forget
When we are all alone then we do both agree
We have a thing in common this was meant to be...”

~The Knife- “Marble House”

One of the saddest realities that we all have to face at sometime in our lives if the fact that we can find someone and see them for a total of an hour and know that you will never see them again. You can hope and wish and pray to see them again, but then in sneaks the depressing reality that you will never see them again. You tell your friends, they tell you that you never know that if you will never see them again. You know, though. You know.

What is the worst part is that you can stop thinking about that person you met for a mere hour. That person who seemed to just make a big impression in your mind and you aren't quite sure how. It gets into your brain and wiggles its way into your head and dies in there. Stinking up your life and you can't help but always come back to the thought, well if I only would've just talked with them, if only I did take his friends advice and hooked up with him... If only...

It's the only thing that can go through your mind and you beat yourself up over all of it. It gets to the point where you are having dreams about this person and you don't even know them, yet you can't help any of it. In your dreams you are trying to find them and get them to notice you but you can't, or they won't. You get a friend with you to drive you around the busy streets of downtown, but still no luck. You travel to strange night clubs, music filling your veins as you get drunk off of the touch of a lonely girl in the corner. You search in this wonderland of sorts. Nothing still.

The only hope you have now is that maybe one day you will see them again and maybe something will happen.

Until then... you keep on living. Or try to.

XX
JW